I have never considered myself much of a risk taker. Usually, I shy away from doing anything crazy. This past year has shown me that I am a risk taker, that I can take leaps of faith and that everything will be alright. A year ago, I moved 3,000 miles away from my family and friends to pursue my Master's in Boston. I came out here knowing only my roommate. No matter how scared I was, I knew I was making the right choice as the Lord had shown me the path I now needed to take and even confirmed it to my parents. Usually, I am shy and would rather fade into the background, but I could not be that out here. With no family nearby, I had to create a new one and that meant making new friends. I put myself out there and befriend people. I developed this great group of friends at church and at school, who I love so dearly. I took this huge risk (moving) and another (stepping out of my comfort zone to make friends), but now this is other situation I am in where I don't know what to do.
Here is where I need some advice. I am going to be extremely vague in many ways, but hopefully what I write makes sense. If not, just call me. I am in this situation where I need to decide to take the ultimate risk by being completely honest about my feelings. I don't know what to do and have spent the past few days contemplating my next step and why taking it scares me. Moving to Boston scared me, but I did it. Making new friends was never easy, but I did it. Why is doing this thing scaring me? I thought it scared me because I was frightened of rejection. However, now I think I am scared of getting everything I wanted. Of being extremely happy. How crazy is that? Why does this scare me? I could be on the cusp of this great thing, but yet, I cannot take that leap of faith. I know I should just go for it. I know I should jump, I really should. I am open to any advice or suggestions. Thanks!!!
3 comments:
Hi Janae!
I found your blog on Renee's site. I hope you don't mind me reading your blog. I'm not exactly sure what you are going through. When I find myself in situations where I have to take a huge leap of faith, I rely on our Heavenly Father. He is the one who you can pore your whole heart to. You are a talented, beautiful, strong women. Always be honest with you feelings and never settle for less. If you need someone to listen just give me a call.
DO IT!
Hope for the best and know that whatever happens is what the Lord has in mind for you and He loves you.
Thanks you guys!!! I really appreciate your advice.
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