Amazingly enough, it is eleven o'clock on a Friday night and I am still awake. Usually, by this time, I am passed out (for example, a few weeks ago I went to sleep at 9:30) because that is how tired I was. Why was I so tired? Well, I developed this thought that if I worked really hard and got everything done for school in these past two weeks that it would make graduation come faster. Instead, I exhausted myself, because besides doing homework, I still had to go to class and work. I live the ultimate balancing act, which is helped by my planner. I have learned that everyone in my program is all about planning and scheduling. Yes, we are that cool, but it is who we are. We could not be in this program without having this skill. And yes, people have made fun of me, but oh well, it is what keeps me sane and helps me remember things.
Today though I finished the last paper I will ever have to write for graduate school. I cannot even described what it feels like. I think I let out a huge sigh of relief and felt elation at the same time. Grad school is not easy and add working on top of that, my life has been pretty crazy these past two years. But I would not trade these past two years for anything because they have been great. I have learned a lot about myself and have made some dear friends out here. I am not the same person I was when I first arrived. As graduation approaches, I am just excited and happy and relieved and kind of thinking "wow, I really did this, I really did." I have had some doubts and I have had some struggles, but I needed them to make me stronger. To show that I can make it through anything because I am not weak. But now, I would kind of like just a little break from the hardships. I do not think that is too much to ask for.
Aside from graduation, I am excited to see my family. We will all be here together in Boston in just a few short weeks. They are my support. I love them so much and I am thankful for them. I am thankful for my cousin Jessica and her family. They have been such a great support system. I love them very much. She has just been there for me in so many ways. I do not even know how to begin to say thank you. I love you, Jess!!!
Well, have a good Friday night. I am off to sleep and for the first time in long time, look forward to a Saturday that does not involve that much homework or eight hours in the library. Yes, eight hours in the library.
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